Yes, I have written a total of three blogs today, but with less than a month to go, I just have a lot to say. (Sean is probably thinking, “When is it any different?!” haha…)

All of my married friends have told me that the last month of wedding planning transforms you into a different person, but I never really believed them until strange things have started happening. I went through a phase of having nightmares, one of which Sean had an evil laugh during our walk out of the church and said, “Hahaha… you only thought you knew who I was.” HAHHA… I know it’s absolutely ridiculous, but I’m having all sorts of crazy dreams.

The second weird experience is that I’m scared to death something is going to happen to Sean. He was at work this morning, as usual, and I had sent him two emails and called him, and he never responded or called me back. So, about an hour afterwards, I started worrying that something must have happened. I called his personal cell, his work cell, his desk line, and emailed both his personal and work email addresses. All of the sudden, I pictured his car in a ditch and nobody knowing where he was. Well, about ten minutes after I had all sorts of scenarios in my head, Sean called to ease my fears. Did I mention I also freaked out over New Years? Sean was put in charge of fireworks, and I was imagining his arm or head getting blown off by a firecracker. What is wrong with me?!

I’m not sure what will happen next, but I can tell you that I’m REALLY looking forward to being at the back of the church and walking down that aisle. I’m over the planning and the details of everything. Sean and I just want to find ourselves with our toes in the sand of St. Lucia soaking up the sun. I’m still working hard to keep everything in perspective and try to enjoy the last month of our engagement, and I thank everyone who is pitching in at the last minute to help us accomplish the biggest day of our lives!